Hello introduction sorry if i'm breakin forum rules
Hello everyone just introducing myself. my name is christopher hatten and i'm from schaumburg illinois. I train at midwest training center which is the same place mike lullo trains at. Also i'm fairly certain clay guida came out of it also. I was an accounting student at the university of illinois urbana champaign when i went into a manic episode after getting addicted to JWH-018 a synthetic THC. I didnt smoke spice or k2, i smoked the white powder over a lil green. then all of a sudden its like all the barriers i had placed in my life(my 340 pound weight) and other social problems just began to melt away. In my manic state i traveled around campus carrying 3 things, 1. a container of almonds pecans walnuts and granola. 2. a water container. and 3. the book of knowledge that i got from costcos.
I wrote in this book for 5 days and walked until i was limping everywhere due to blisters on my feet, i slept at different libraries throughout the campus. In the book of knowledge i wondered why religion WHY?! and i thought, duh philosphy counters religion, so i looked to who hated catholics. Soren Kierkegaard, who was conveniently next to schopenhauer in the book. kierkegaard states there are 3 phases of existence we all live through. 1. material - sex drive 2. ethicial longterm satisfaction vs shorterm gratification and 3. fear of dying alone which is when most people turn to religion. now here is where schopenhauer fits in he believed in "the world as a will" ie societal negative programming, and that prevents people from entering into MY NEW FOUND phase 4. of permanent happiness where you have the motivation to do whatever it is you really fucking want to do. and in this state i recognized the 6th sense of empathy the third eye.
I kinda am well.... a.... virgin so by smoking jwh for so long i kinda bypassed the 1st 2nd and 3rd phase and experienced a "near death experience" when i recognized i was addicted to this stuff, and once i was out i drank a couple 4locos started shouting to my roomates i'm a junkie and from there went into my manic state.
in the end i'm bipolar and the one thing that calms me down is martial arts. i'm sure youve all watched the bruce lee lost interview, bringing control and instinct together in harmony makes me happy. however now that i'm homebound, no cannabis, and still never a gf or anything the only time i'm most genuinely happy is when i'm at MTC. I love my family but theyve put limits on me.
