I'm sitting here in Amsterdam thinking to myself that I'm really hating this ridiculous game that users have to play.
Having to deny the use of a substance that has done more for improving MY moral well-being, headaches, kinks, knots, mental psyche, stress level, insomnia and overall pains than anything else in my LIFE is unnerving!
We all know it has benefits. There is no denying that anymore. Any ignorance to that fact is because of self denial, not research or available accepted knowledge- The information is out there. I too, was once blinded by the idiosyncrasies of the mainstream zeitgeist of yesterday.
I once held such opposition to this, that I dismissed trusted friends and spiritual guiders on my quest for sobriety. I saw it as a crutch, a weakness and a sign of a "bad" person.
Admittedly to everyone who has opposition to it still- I can see the ability for it to be abused for social recreation purposes rather than medicinal uses. I understand and agree with the movement for against people who are irresponsible, but I beg of you to make the separation between 'use' and 'abuse'.
With the benefits clearly in front of us, we still, for some UNGODLY reason, I have to deny this potentially life-saving MEDICINE.
It's difficult for me because I live a life that most would kill for. I'm my own boss, I travel when/where/how I want without having to worry about drug testing or a close-minded corporation/boss.
I have the luxury to 'fight' more than about anyone you know. I have the ability to take a stand and I want to be able to get up on a table and scream about the benefits to everyone!
Personally, I'm just having a hard time balancing the 'denial' of use and the spouting of positives that I have experienced in the past two months- to every person I come across. My world has been opened up, I feel as though my hood has been removed. More than just an eye-opening, I see every interaction that I have amplified and strengthened. To say it lightly, it's a new beautiful world in front of me. I want to share this so badly.
Why do I have to stand back? I feel like a lot can be taken away with admission of use for some reason. How can I balance this feeling?
Any words of wisdom?
"suck it up"? "Shut up and color"? "Just deal with it"? "welcome to what we alllll deal with"?...or
"Fight the power!"? "Help the movement"?
Reguards
-A disgruntled new man
PS- I CANT WAIT to roll with it. Recovering from surgeries suck.
Having to deny the use of a substance that has done more for improving MY moral well-being, headaches, kinks, knots, mental psyche, stress level, insomnia and overall pains than anything else in my LIFE is unnerving!
We all know it has benefits. There is no denying that anymore. Any ignorance to that fact is because of self denial, not research or available accepted knowledge- The information is out there. I too, was once blinded by the idiosyncrasies of the mainstream zeitgeist of yesterday.
I once held such opposition to this, that I dismissed trusted friends and spiritual guiders on my quest for sobriety. I saw it as a crutch, a weakness and a sign of a "bad" person.
Admittedly to everyone who has opposition to it still- I can see the ability for it to be abused for social recreation purposes rather than medicinal uses. I understand and agree with the movement for against people who are irresponsible, but I beg of you to make the separation between 'use' and 'abuse'.
With the benefits clearly in front of us, we still, for some UNGODLY reason, I have to deny this potentially life-saving MEDICINE.
It's difficult for me because I live a life that most would kill for. I'm my own boss, I travel when/where/how I want without having to worry about drug testing or a close-minded corporation/boss.
I have the luxury to 'fight' more than about anyone you know. I have the ability to take a stand and I want to be able to get up on a table and scream about the benefits to everyone!
Personally, I'm just having a hard time balancing the 'denial' of use and the spouting of positives that I have experienced in the past two months- to every person I come across. My world has been opened up, I feel as though my hood has been removed. More than just an eye-opening, I see every interaction that I have amplified and strengthened. To say it lightly, it's a new beautiful world in front of me. I want to share this so badly.
Why do I have to stand back? I feel like a lot can be taken away with admission of use for some reason. How can I balance this feeling?
Any words of wisdom?
"suck it up"? "Shut up and color"? "Just deal with it"? "welcome to what we alllll deal with"?...or
"Fight the power!"? "Help the movement"?
Reguards
-A disgruntled new man
PS- I CANT WAIT to roll with it. Recovering from surgeries suck.
