
Originally Posted by
sean applegate
Good stuff Jesse. Keep your head up buddy. You got through the fear once already, you can do it again. Keep working hard and lean on your team mates.
Thanks for words man. I am considering maybe doing a deep meditation and see if I can face the fear inside my mind and conquer it. So I gotta get my meditation music ready and remember the mediation I say to myself to help me go deep. I did one time and it was weeeeeiiiiirrd.

Like there was a demon who was a representation of the guy I wanted to beat the crap out of from work that disrespected me and martial arts from day one. So I spent most of my time beating the crap out of the said demon. So I would like to see how it goes when I do it again.