I need help. Serious help.

[Fraser Taylor]

This is fucking mental.

[Paul Hughes]

This is fucking mental.

LMAO, word.

[Brandon Mccaghren]

Look, I hope I'm wrong. But I am 100% convinced that you're another poser trying to get the rewards of hard work without any hard work. I'm sure you spend plenty of time around stupid people that fall for this, but this ain't our first rodeo. It used to be the case that I would have felt bad for everybody jumping on you. But I've been burned a few times at this point and dudes like you piss me off terribly. You're looking to take advantage of people and you're gonna get somebody hurt. And if you end up (God forbid) teaching, any reasonable person who crosses your path is gonna be so disgusted by "the martial arts" as represented by you that they will dismiss as foolishness something that could have proven to be the most transformative experience of their life, had they landed with someone with even a modicum of skill or respect.

So pretty please, with cherries on top, get lost.

[Kyle Spalla]

Ahhh the I have amnesia and can't find my instructor but in my heart I know I am Jiu Jitsu Black Belt trick....so predictable.

[John Mejia]

Look, I hope I'm wrong. But I am 100% convinced that you're another poser trying to get the rewards of hard work without any hard work. I'm sure you spend plenty of time around stupid people that fall for this, but this ain't our first rodeo. It used to be the case that I would have felt bad for everybody jumping on you. But I've been burned a few times at this point and dudes like you piss me off terribly. You're looking to take advantage of people and you're gonna get somebody hurt. And if you end up (God forbid) teaching, any reasonable person who crosses your path is gonna be so disgusted by "the martial arts" as represented by you that they will dismiss as foolishness something that could have proven to be the most transformative experience of their life, had they landed with someone with even a modicum of skill or respect.

So pretty please, with cherries on top, get lost.

I got Brandon's back til I'm 6ft under. Porra.

[Wancarlos]

I am incredibly serious about rank, thus why I posted this looking for help. I haven't seen my instructor in at least 5 years. It's hard to be selective when you legitimately do not have the resources. If I have pictures with my instructor they would be back at my family's house. Muscle memory is still somewhat there, but I do not remember everything. Having long term memory loss doesn't mean I forgot everything that ever happened. Like I mentioned I have been back in full time training for almost 3 years, and I have a lot of working knowledge and ability, but I do not want to sandbag. That's the major issue. As far as taking rank seriously, I am asking for advice, if throwing on a white belt and going with it is the best route then I will gladly do it. I am really worried about getting in trouble for declaring myself at a lower level. Like be banned from competing under certain registration? Being stripped of all your wins to lie and say I'm another belt level? Honestly man, I don't blame you for your skepticism, I would be too. But I need some real help here.

Yo man, take our word for it, you'll do fine at white belt and NOBODY will doubt it or ban you.

[Chris Herzog]

Who did you get your black belt from and why haven't you contacted him?

[Rockanrollin]

Baby steps one day at a time. Have as much fun as you can along the way and be willing to help others achieve their goals. Your doing great!

[Toppy]

Who did you get your black belt from and why haven't you contacted him?

What's the instructors name? Why not post it if you're confident you used to be a BB?

[Drew Ash]

Why dont you come down to Boulder sometime and we can figure out your rank pretty quick on the mats.
We re open Monday June 9 and our address is 5721 Arapahoe Ave.
Ft Colins is less than an hour away so if you want to be 10th Planet then it makes no sense why you wouldnt come down.

Brothers and Sisters,
I have quite the problem, and I need to fix it. My name is Matt Herschberg, and I am desperate to find any help or guidance on this. In Febuary 2011, I came down with a pretty heavy illness. It is called CVS or Cyclical vomiting syndrome (sounds about as fun as it is). The disease is a genetic disorder with random occurance, currently in genetic testing after my recovery. My cells stopped producing adequate amounts of ATP, and I crashed hard. I hit the wall like I came outta a plane. I was hospitalized in and out for an overall time of about 5 months out of a 8 month period. I won't get super detailed and miss th point but it sucked, a lot. I flatlined in July of 2011 for about 2 minutes a the peak of severity. I had lost about 75 pounds in 3 months, and was not in good shape. Due to the attacks, I was extremely dehydrated and malnurished for about that whole 8 month period. To say the least, it had some pretty long lasting effects. None quite as sweet as long-term memory loss. I started martial arts when I was about 9-10 from what I have recollected and recorded. My strong point was Jiu-Jitsu, thus why I am here. My schooling was mainly consistent within the Gracie family, until the latter of my training in which I had defected to a small school closer to home (For camps and seminars I would have to travel across Colorado). Which the academy has been closed since my accident and probably a little before then and me moving to college. My certs said I had reached my black belt in BJJ, and when I found it, I had my first stipe as well. Honestly, I have no idea how I had reached that level and question it pretty thouroughly. Obviously I am not that level (especially anymore). All recollections and me asking around my family/friends/associates said I pretty much ate/slept/drank BJJ as long as they could remember, and knew I had made some giant leaps in the sport. Back to the point though, long-term memory loss. All I truly know is my belt and certificate saying I had reached my black. All I want is to compete and train like I used to. Which is what I've done these past 2 years snce before I was cleared to being cleared medically to start again. I missed it so much, and I honestly don't know what I would do without it! So here is the major issue, I really would not do well up against another black, I still have quite a bit to recover. But I want to compete again, but am honestly too afraid to face that. Either I hope all my memory floods back between now and next competition, or sandbag it (which I could never do). The past two semesters I have had the incredible blessing to work with and coach with a Colleague at Colorado State University who holds a purple belt under the Machado family in his home country in the Middle East. I have been training my heart out ever since I got better, so for the better part of about 2-3 years. However, I am still not near what I used to be, but I will reach it again. What I really need is someone to just help me in this journey to come back. Just someone older and wiser than me, and their opinion and help to get me back on track so that I may compete again. I feel like for my best, I need to demote so that I can train at the level I am currently at. My colleague has worked with me for a long while now, and always keeps pushing me to compete and grow further from where I currently am. In his and my other colleages opinions they have said I would fit the best in the brown belt level. I just want to be back! In everything I see, I undoubtedly want to study under 10th Planet, and have no intention of looking anywhere else to continue my growth. What should I do? I know this all is over the top, and if you don't believe me I forgive you. Now that I've been cleared for almost 2 years, I just want to come back. I don't want to be ashamed to hold my belt, I want to be at the level that is the best for me. My memory is still coming back more and more each day, and it feels so good. Thank you all who read this, and if you have any tips or suggestions I can definitely use all he help I can right now.

Thank you,
-Matt