i know this might sound like a dick thing but its not ,good for her it might be sad but the universe has a plan 2,5,even 10 years from now you'll look back and see how this shaped your life and ill tell you its for the better i lost my father really young and i tried to take my life a few years after am glad i didnt i believe death is a very beautiful thing i will have a tea ceremony and brun a candle to honor her and wish her safe passage i have never met you but you are my Nibiru brother as well my brother in life.and remember to not dwell on her passing but dwell on all she has done for you. Much love and respect to you and your family from me and mine.